Someone Please Stop this Emotional Rollercoaster

All I can do is cry and cry!!  I'm so tired.  I think everything is finally catching up to me.  I cant take being alone anymore.  My husband doesnt help me, my kids barely do since he wont.  I cant take all this on my own.  I just want this over!  I want a job!  I want to feel better!!  I'm so tired of being alone!!!!  I'm so tired of having to accept this is how people treat me.  When am I allow to expect help and appreciation.  Heck, whats wrong with being able to expect a little extra stress relief and little extra love while I'm going through such a difficult time!?!?!?!  Trust me I'd so rather be working 12 hours a day and doing NOTHING else, than dealing with EVERYTHING!  My shoulders are so heavy... I just need someone to embrase me and truely help me.  I JUST WANT THIS ALL OVER!!!  I'M SO AT MY END!!! I CANNOT DO IT ANYMORE!!!