Day 4 of LID and Post-Op Doc Appt 9/23/2010

I'm really tired this morning.  My DS20mo, was up all night with a fever not feeling well.  I'm heading to take him to the doc soon.  Then I have a doc appt with my surgeon.  In between the two appts I have to pick up my DS17 from school.  Last night our 2nd car blew out its waterpump, so we're down to one car.  OH JOY!  Poor DS 17 just paid for his parking pass at school and had been driving himself!  Poor guy is back to riding the bus at 5:00am!! 

So far, I've been actually doing pretty well on my LID diet.  I do not have the best will power when it comes to food, but I'm not really struggling at all....yet!  I miss my milk in my coffee, and certainly hate not having bread, or ice cream, or cereal... but I've managed to substitute with some good food.  Also, DD14 about made me cry... even she realizes how important this is.  Every day she's been asking me how I've done on my diet that day.  Then she looked me right in the eye and said "because you know mom, this isnt like weight watchers.... you cant cheat you know!  This is serious and if you cheat on your diet, then your treatment wont work."  Bless her heart... she really does love me!!  Shes the only one that gets it... at least this crappy part of it.  I have to be very conscious of everything that goes into my body so SHE can see me working hard on getting better. 

So far my favorite for dinner has been my homemade pasta sauce.  I got a bag of organic (no salt) vegetable pasta, and small cans of no salt tomato sauce and diced tomatoes.  I sauteed some green pepper, onion, mushroom in olive oil and added my tomato sauce, non-iodized salt, pepper, garlic powder, oregano, parsley.  It was DELISH!  The pasta was awesome!  I really enjoyed it!  Actually the best part of that dinner was the beer bread I made.  Super easy recipe, then I dipped it in olive oil/black pepper.  YUM!!  Maybe I'll get brave today and attempt real bread!?!?!? 

So far my fave breakfast will probably also become my fave dessert.  I made my real oatmeal... no milk or butter of course.  Then decided I'd make it like a no bake cookie!  I'm not much for measuring so you'll have to play with amounts but I added a couple spoons of sugar, couple spoons of LID approved peanut butter, and a spoon of cocoa powder.  NOT Nestles... this is cooking cocoa powder from the bakery isle.  On the side it will say 100% cocoa powder... and by itself its nasty.  But OMG this breakfast was YUMMY!

I head to the surgeon today.  I'm 4 weeks and a few days post-op.  The scar is still raised and red, and has a few of the end of the inside stitches sticking out.  But, I can tell over the course of the next year it will probably be nearly impossible to see.  Actually with my voice the way it is, I secretly am glad you can see evidence of the surgery.  I'm concerned with the lack of progress of my voice.  This stupid doc better NOT dismiss it!!  I cannot talk!  I sound horrible, and have zero projection.  If I'm in the other room and need to call the dog, or one of the kids, I am unable.... part of my voice/neck is paralyzed.  If I need to go through a drive through and try to place an order, I end up frustrated and have to pull over and go in.  If I need to call someone on the phone and there is any noise at all whatsoever in either my background, or theirs, I end up frustrated wishing I didnt bother with the call.  I am not going to let Dr. Lentsch dismiss my voice distress.  I'll drop in to let you know how it all goes.

Got a call from doc office this morning and my surgeon aparently had a family emergency and I needed to reschedule.  I tried calling and never got an answer at the office itself.  I did not want to call appt line because they wouldnt get me in for 3 months. 

I'll try again tomorrow.......